Thursday, March 13, 2014

This is my sacred duty

This morning I was able to perform vicarious baptisms for the dead. Here's why:

Because this is my sacred duty.

 No we don't dunk dead bodies. I was baptized as a proxy for those that have passed on and cannot perform their own saving ordinances. The person whose work was done can then choose to accept the work, or to not accept it. (Yes we believe in life after death and agency and in eternal progression and eternal families and all that good stuff) 
" Behold, I will send you Elijah the prophet before the coming of the great and dreadful day of the Lord: And he shall turn the heart of the fathers to the children, and the heart of the children to their fathers, lest I come and smite the earth with a curse."
(Malachi 4:5-6)
Ancient prophets foretold the return of Elijah before the Second Coming of Jesus Christ. This prophecy was also one of the first messages that Moroni gave to young Joseph and is being fulfilled around the world in LDS temples through saving and sealing ordinances.
President Henry B. Eyring of the First Presidency taught:
“It is important to know why the Lord promised to send Elijah. Elijah was a great prophet with great power given him by God. He held the greatest power God gives to His children: he held the sealing power, the power to bind on earth and have it bound in heaven. … And the Lord kept His promise to send Elijah. Elijah came to the Prophet Joseph Smith on April 3, 1836, just after the dedication of the Kirtland Temple, the first temple built after the restoration of the gospel.
Your effort in behalf of your ancestors is patterned after the work of the Savior, although on a much smaller scale. The Savior enables all of us to return to Heavenly Father’s presence through the Atonement, and you help your ancestors receive the blessings of the Atonement by making ordinances available to them. You do a saving work for them that they cannot do for themselves.
The Prophet Joseph Smith taught that Latter-day Saints are to become saviors on Mount Zion. He explained: “How are they to become saviors on Mount Zion? By building their temples, erecting their baptismal fonts, and going forth and receiving all the ordinances … upon their heads, in behalf of all their progenitors who are dead, and redeem them that they may come forth in the first resurrection and be exalted to thrones of glory with them."
Temple and family history work unites families. Husbands and wives, parents and children can be sealed through sacred temple ordinances. The goal of this process is that “the whole chain of God’s family shall be welded together into one chain, and they shall all become the family of God and His Christ” 
To learn more about Mormons and LDS temples go to or watch this video on YouTube. : Why Mormons Build Temples

Monday, June 11, 2012

I know what's best

We all feel that way right?

Our human tendency is to want things we desire to happen on our own time (which for me is yesterday) and in my own way. Many times people, including myself, condition their faith and allegiance to Christ and to the Church upon these desires and the fulfillment (or lack of fulfillment) of them.

I need to remember these words of wisdom from Elder Neal A. Maxwell:

"When we are unduly impatient with an omniscient God's timing, we really are suggesting that we know what is best. Strange, isn't it--we who wear wristwatches seek to counsel Him who oversees cosmic clocks and calendars."

Thursday, June 7, 2012

To whom it may concern,


Patiently (sorta) waiting

Saturday, June 2, 2012

Love and Marriage

I am overwhelmed by so many thoughts and emotions right now, I hope I can pull some words from my heart and brain and arrange them in some sort of coherent sentence. Love and marriage are on my brain. Not for any specific reason (or boy--sadly I am incredibly disheartened and cynical when it comes the the male race of Provo Utah. And that is exactly the problem. I am so critical and judgmental and so ready to stereotype all the "lame Provo boys" or all the "lame boys" in general. It is so easy to go into dating nowadays expecting it to fail. Expecting it to not work out for whatever reason. We are all filled with excuses. "there's always someone better" there's too many fish in the sea" "he/she is divorced" "he's a player" "he/she has kids" "I'm scared" "he's scared" "bad timing" "I'm too busy" "it's too much work" "not enough fish in the sea" "everyone gets divorced, even in the church" "he/she has a sketchy past" "I'm hung up on an ex" "he/she is hung up on an ex" "I just want to have fun" "we don't have a connection" .....the list goes on and on right? We all have a hundred reasons why we don't date, why all we ever do is date, and why we never commit. We are all focused on the past. Or we are focused on the future. Which are both good. And necessary. And wonderful. But we don't look at it that way. We look at the past, we look at the present, and we look at the future, and we worry, and we doubt. And we see all the reasons why it couldn't and wouldn't work out.

Self fulfilling prophecy?

I'm a big believer in that the universe gives back whatever you put out. Our attitude, thoughts, and emotions heavily impact the world around us. One thing I've learned from sales, that applies to all aspects of life: is its all mental. And might I add spiritual. If you go into a sale with a bad attitude or not expecting to get it, guess what, you're not going to get it. But on the flip side it's amazing what a positive happy tenacious attitude will get you. Go into a sale thinking, "I can totally close this person!" and "I'm an awesome saleswoman" and you're going to get that sale! It's exhilarating. Well I've been thinking, shouldn't that same formula apply to all aspects of life. Of course it does! Duh! Go into a relationship with a hundred reasons why it should fail (and maybe they are all valid concerns) but guess what, that relationship is going to fail. Go into it head first, fearless (Taylor swift has it figured out) and you're going to have one heck of an amazing relationship. A self fulfilling prophecy.

To bring the spiritual aspect in that ties this all together in a neat little bow (I hope, I feel like I'm just rambling and stringing random thoughts together) our capacity to love others is intertwined with our capacity to live the Lord. Below is a quote from an amazing article I just read in LDS living about an LDS couple in which the husband experiences same sex attraction. His wife beautifully wrote, before they were married: "...I felt that you love me now more than many people ever love their partners or spouses. Your love for me existed long before we ever went on our first date, because it was a love you were trying to cultivate with Christ as your example, before you even felt that marriage to a woman would be possible in this life. It was who you were trying to be"

How beautiful is that?

Here is a woman with the faith, the understanding, and the courage to trust in a mans love for her. In the love of a man who experiences same sex attraction. And this was possible for her because she had faith. Faith and doubt cannot coexist. And the man, Ty Manfield, what an awesome example of coming unto the Lord and being perfected through his trials. I am sure he has had many moments of doubt and fear in his life. But he decided I time and time again to focus on his faith. And through that he developed a love for a woman much deeper and more pure than hormones and emotions. It was who he was trying to be.

His wife continues " I think so many people rely on their hormones and or their emotions to drive them that they get stuck feeling for their spouse whatever those things tell them to feel. And then if they try to feel otherwise, to love their spouse more than what hormones or emotions tell them to, they feel like they're doing their spouse a favor rather than recognizing that they hadn't understood how to truly love in the first place."

And the most poignant part of what she wrote: " I think that us coming onto each others lives, feeling drawn to each other and attracted to who the other person was and is, and then DECIDING (important key words bolded) that we want to unite our loves and CONTINUE to care for and love each other and to build our love together all WHILE STRIVING to become more like Christ, as a TEAM with Christ...I feel sad for people who don't get it and who have reduced marriage to a mere shadow of what it was intended to be and how beautiful it can be."

I do not wish to get into a debate about same sex attraction. I simply share this story about a beautiful couple who love each other deeply and have a wonderful loving relationship that is filled with struggles and hardships just as is any other relationship. But some might say they have a trial bigger than most. An elephant in the room. Think of all the reasons this couple had to fear, to doubt, to make excuses for all the reasons this relationship marriage could not and would not work. His wife Danielle wrote "I have no doubts or regrets about choosing to marry Ty. Early on, long before we were engaged, I felt a momentary flash of fear, but almost as quickly as it came, I felt a powerful, calm reassurance -: the thought, 'you can trust Ty. He is who he says he is. You know what you have felt.' the fear never returned."

I'm willing to bet that fear could have easily returned, if she had fed it. If she had decided to focus on her fears. But she didn't. She obviously made a choice to have faith and trust in her feelings and in her love. And that I guess is the point I am trying to express. That we get what we focus on. Whether it be bad or good. Her and Ty made the CHOICE to love each other and ACT on their feelings for each other by COMMITTING to each other despite their challenges. I am so humbled. I am the first to admit I have so much to learn from Danielle's amazing example. We all have pasts, but they do not define us. We learn from them, and grow from them, but we are not our pasts.

It's all about love baby. And self fulfilling prophecies. So let's all quit the games and let go of the fears, the judgments, the blame, and the reasons why not. Instead, let's focus on all the whys. All we need is love. Pure, Christlike love<3

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

1 Peter 5:10

But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Happy Sunday!

Can I just say that I have moved into the best ward and made the BEST friends ever. Yes, my friends are better than yours. And my ward is better than yours. So get over it. But seriously, I don't think I have ever been in such an amazing ward before. I've hardly been in the ward a month and I've already made so many wonderful friends and feel apart of the ward, and like I belong. It's because there are so many amazing caring and friendly people in my ward, and you can just feel the love and concern everyone has for one another. We truly have a ward family.
Today was fast and testimony meeting and I woke up with that "dang it, today I need to bear my testimony" feeling. You know the one that nags you all day long and you try to reason out of or ignore because getting up on the pulpit is so nerve wrecking. But then sacrament meeting starts and that feeling turns into a pounding of the heart that beats so fast and hard you cannot ignore it, and so you finally make that move to get up from your seat and walk to the front in between testimonies. (Making that first move to get up truly is the hardest step) Anyways somehow I made it up there and blubbered through my testimony. I was so anxious I don't remember half of what I said. But I'll share a little of my testimony here. I know we have a father in heaven who loves us and knows us by name. I know that his son, and our brother, Jesus Christ, loves our Heavenly Father and loves us, and because of that love his will was swallowed up in the will of our father, and he atoned for and sacrificed himself for our sins, so that we might be perfected and saved through him. I know Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ appeared to Joseph Smith and that he is a Prophet of God, and that he restored Christ's church in these latter days. I know this gospel is true. I know the Book of Mormon is true and that it is the word of God, and another testament of Jesus Christ. I know that as we prayerfully study it we can come to know Christ, and that as we abide by the counsel and principles taught in it we will find joy. I know that although in this life we will feel loneliness and sadness and at times even forsaken and despair, that Christ can succor us. Christ too felt forsaken and bore the full weight of the atonement on his own for a moment in the garden of gethsemane and on the cross. Heavenly Father completely withdrew his presence. Not because he didn't love Christ, but because he had to let him accomplish so humbling and painful a task on his own so that he could have all glory. Such is the case at times in our lives. Sometimes we feel as if our Heavenly Father is not there, that we are on our own. But it is during these times, if we remain faithful and keep God's commandments, and continue to pray and seek guidance and endure, that we learn and grow and receive more strength than we ever thought we were capable of. And Christ understands. :-) I know that this truly is the gospel of happiness and that we can inherit all that our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ have. We can be with our families and Heavenly Father and Christ for the eternities. What could bring more hope and joy than knowing that? This life is not it. :-)
On another note, the rest of my Sunday was just as beautiful and wonderful as church was. My roommates and I had a delicious picnic with our good friends Tyler, Stu, Trevor, and Logan. We cooked this time and in two weeks they are cooking for us, aren't they the best? We enjoyed each others company out in the crisp Utah air, eating casserole, chips, apples and watermelon, and drinking dr. Pepper, trying to pretend it was still summer as we enjoyed the sunshine. After our fun little picnic I went and celebrated my cousin in laws birthday and spent a fun time with family, and then went to ward prayer where I received and gave hugs and smiles, and felt so loved. Oh and ate delicious cookies and drank hot chocolate around a warm fire. I love my ward. I love my life. I love my friends. <3

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Happy Halloween!

Ok I know Halloween is still a few weeks away but I think all of October should be dedicated to celebrating Halloween! Halloween is one of my favorite holidays... I love everything about it....dressing up and going all out, carving pumpkins, HAUNTED HOUSES that scare me silly, eating pumpkin seeds, trick or treating, and Halloween parties!! Last night some new cool dudes that I met in my ward put on a super fun Halloween dance party at classic skate...shout out to Brandon, Marcel, Skyler, and CJ, I love you guys! They are so much fun and becoming such good friends! Ashley and I went dressed up as Taylor Swift and Silk was so fun getting dressed up in all the glitter and glam and going out with all my wonderful friends and partying up, letting loose and dancing and singing like crazy! Things even got a little crazy in the cage, oh snap! Ash and I danced the night away looking super cute and sexy with our friends Noelia, Karen, Mylee, Kiffin, CJ, Marcel, Brandon, and Skyler. It was such a good, good night. Here's to Halloween and great friends!